Still I Will Worship

Yesterday, a song by Shane and Shane randomly popped into my head. Out of no where. But also, at just the right time. Some of the lyrics go like this:

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the One who’s all I need

Heavy stuff. And in the middle of one recording of the song, John Piper talks about our pain and our suffering not only being light and momentary compared to the joy which will be revealed, but as meaningful.

I am seeing this pain and suffering all around me. A neighbor’s brother who is sick and having to be placed in a nursing home that is less than ideal because of complications with MediCare/Medicaid. A homeless friend’s baby with a cyst on her brain. Wrestling with questions about oppression and the cycles of poverty. Heavy stuff that doesn’t seem light and doesn’t seem momentary. And meaningful? How?

In the past two months, I have been not too surprised to find that I have a million questions and very few answers. How can my presence in a place so vastly different than I’ve ever known be redemptive and an act of justice rather than perpetuating cycles of oppression? How do I respond to a three-year-old whose pretending with a plastic play kitchen knife is violent? What do I say when my neighbors are anxious and broken and grieving? What if I don’t know what to say? These are only a tiny fraction of the questions that have been coming up. And although I’ve addressed and wrestled with this question for a good portion of my life, I still find myself asking–How can God be good with all of these things happening?

And so I sing, for my neighbors, my friends and myself:

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the One who’s all I need

He’s here in these moments. He is working for our good. Even when we don’t see it. Even when we don’t feel it. Even when everything around us seems to contradict it. Our suffering is meaningful and He is enough for us.

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